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Pianoman

Non stop spiral down the abyss

a lone ranger on an uncharted journey to the inevitable sad ending

Count Down --- less than two weeks
Pianoman
ibbyguitar
29 March 2012 .... another milestone ....
Now I truly believe that life is a series of challenges that prepare one for the bigger challenges ahead ...

A freak accident shortly after dawn (6:25am GMT+3 to be exact) on Saturday November 30th, 1985 was a decisive moment in my life; a turning point .... instead of embarking on my musical career (the plan was to sign up for a regular act at one night spot later that evening), I ended up in reconstructive surgery ward, where I spent the next 10 weeks with a disabled right hand.

Miracle after miracle, and somehow I beat the odds, and was discharged mid Feb 1986 with a functioning hand. And that was the start of my career away from the passion of my life: a career as a musician.

Fast forward to 2008.... a major traffic jam on SZR ... snail slow traffic ... took more than 20 minutes from Greens to pass Mall of the Emirates ... late night (after 10pm) ... so damn tired ... tried to wiggle away from traffic only ended up ramming into a 22 wheeler with a badly twisted left shoulder....

Evaded hospitalization and spent the next four weeks without a left arm ...

Fast forward 2009 ... April, an idiot decides to take the team on a team building activity -- fishing on a miniature single engine boat ... sea not so calm ... actually quite rough ... afternoon ... pushes on almost 20 nautical miles off the coast ... and as expected no fish ... the jerk decides to speed it back to shore ... and I end up with a totally damaged right shoulder ... it practically slips out of place with alarming ease ....

Made it through six agonizing weeks ... only to fail on physiotherapy .... which brings us to the present challenge ...

Sleepless for several months ... no I am not in love... no I am not suffering from loss of precious or dear ones ...

Physical pain ... non stop for the past six months ... may be even long before that ...

The old shoulder giving in ... ignored it and the pain ... aggravated reviving musical career practice ... jamming with friends ... had a nice four song gig ... with devastating consequences ....

finally checked in with the orthopedic consultant ... another (actually third) MR examination ... I am getting used to it it scares me ... lol

Impression: shoulder is almost lost ... no ligaments, no cartridges, some muscles pulled off from insertion points ... literally arm now hanging by threads ...

verdict: shoulder needs to be reconstructed; complex procedure .. scary ...

Options: a) nurse shoulder ... end up without one a matter of months
b) reconstructive surgery ...

Risks: 3 to 6 months rehabilitation; 3 weeks immobilization no right arm followed by 4 weeks passive exercise motion ... and finally 6 weeks active / resisted motion

Challenge: living alone ... in an isolated area ... with one arm ... for 3 weeks ...
I hope I am prepared for it ... and live through to survive it ... no guitar or piano for a looooooooooooooong time ...

I am optimistic ... will try to pass time with one hand typing ... left handed ... did it before though it was only the hand that was immobilized ... now the whole arm ...

An interesting challenge ... another milestone ...

I am excited .... thrilled ... looking forward to it ...